Showing posts with label Romance Writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Romance Writing. Show all posts

Monday, 23 June 2025

Things I Need to be a Writer

As a romance writer, I don't need a lot, but there are a few things that help me to write the erotic romance novels that I do. Some are a given. The day job funds my writing career, the laptop is essential for the practicalities of being a writer, and my imagination is what makes me a writer. But there are some essentials I couldn't get by without. Or maybe I could, but it wouldn't be as fun. 

Books

Not my own, but other people's. I need the words and stories of other writers. They inspire me, but as well as that, they take me out of my own writing when I need it. They can work like a palate cleanser for fiction. 

The core of the reason, though, is that books are just brilliant. I love writing, but as much as that, I love other writers' words and stories. Their minds work in ways mine doesn't. Their books have plots I could never invent. Their characters are different because they aren't a part of me like mine are.

Tea and Coffee

Coffee kickstarts me in the morning. Tea sustains me throughout the day, and if I'm going to sit at a laptop and write, then I'm going to require tea to keep me there. Some Jaffa Cakes and Bourbon Creams wouldn't go amiss either.  

Music

Music is a powerful thing. It can have an impact on mental health, it can reduce stress, but on a more personal level, it shoots me into writing, in a way that nothing else does. I play music, I think of my book, and scenes play out in my head. If I'm struggling with a scene, and writer's block has me in its grip, then I can usually find my way out with music, especially when it's hand in hand with...

Walking

I put in my earphones and I walk the streets. The important thing is to be careful. I go early, and I stick to the areas that are populated. I look both ways before I cross the street too, and then I can lose myself in my imagination.

Notebook and Pen

This is my other cure for writer's block. If I've stalled on the white screen of a Word document, then switching to hard copy can make all the difference. Lined pages and a pen... It's the way to go. Also, it feeds my stationery addiction. I get to keep buying notebooks. 

Essentials

I'm a romance writer, so I can write with no more than a notebook and pen, or a blank computer document if I need to, but the things I've listed are comforts that make it a much more enjoyable way to do it. 

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Monday, 30 December 2024

Fresh Start

 Christmas is over. New year is coming!


My search for an organised life is underway. My first step was to identify which part of my life to focus on at the beginning. Which part takes priority? Well, I think I found it. 

Where to Start?


General tidying is where I begin my mission. I basically live in one room. Not even a big room. This small space is my home and I have a lot of stuff. My belongings aren't at hoarders level, but I sew which comes with a lot of equipment and obviously, I own a lot of books. Not to mention notebooks, cooking equipment, shoes, makeup, clothes in general. It all fills that small area quickly. 

Christmas:

It's a wee bit early to be packing up Christmas, given that we've not even reached New Year yet, but even with this, I'm looking for order. Christmas jumpers boxed away together. Tree decorations together. Ornaments, candles, tinsel... everything has its own place even in storage. 

Books:


I love books and I own a lot of them, but this year, I'm planning to use my local library a lot more, to save myself buying them all the time. My books have different categories. 

There are the ones that I like to own and display on a bookshelf like a trophy - these are usually from my favourite authors like Nalini Singh, Kresley Cole, Johanna Lindsey and Gena Showalter. 

Then there are the favourites that I keep on my Kindle or reader, but I'll need them all. These are from authors like Eve Langlais, S.E. Smith, M.K. Eidem. 

I often buy Mills and Boon books from market stalls and charity shops because authors like Betty Neels, Emma Darcy and Patricia Wilson are often found there and I love them. 

There are the obvious classics that you have to own too. So I have my copies of Jane Austen's books, Jane Eyre, Wuthering Heights, and Little Women. They're also shelf trophies. 

That's my Keep-Forever collection. 

There are a lot of books on my TBR pile that I know I'll read once and not go back to but I've always kept them just in case. I'm trying to change that. Now I'm trying to clear my reading decks of these books. Here's how:
  • Local Library: The library in my area has an ebook app that supplies books I can easily read on my phone or tablet. And if I'm feeling in the mood for a hard copy, the nearest library is a ten-minute walk. 
  • Get Rid: Sometimes when it comes to disposing of books I won't read, I just haven't found the ruthlessness, but this year that changes. Or at least, it changes a little bit. I've already started passing them on to friends. I'll donate to charity shops, and I've found an app where I can sell some. Not for much, but at least it helps me feel like I'm not just discarding them. 
  • TBR: I own a lot of books I haven't read. It will make such a difference if I can make my way down this pile, which is in fact, many piles. 

Hobbies


I'm a crafter, particularly sewing and knitting; supplies can take over any empty space. I've started using toolboxes for tools of the trade. I've got tubs for works in progress. Bags for projects. Baskets of wool. But the main way to reduce the crafting chaos will be to use the materials and fabrics that I already own. Make them into clothes. 

Which brings me to...

Clothing and Makeup

I have a lot of clothes. And a lot of shoes. And a lot of makeup. Through 2025, I need to buy less. I could try selling some of what I own or that I've outgrown, but I've tried that through one of the clothes-selling apps and it was like a full-time job that made me very little money. I would post a belt for sale and people would try and haggle it down to a pound, then to send it, the nearest place was a five-minute drive away. With petrol prices, I'm pretty sure that ended up costing me money. 

So I'll try and buy less, try and make some from my fabric stash. I'll use the makeup I own. Utilize what I have. 

Office

I don't have an office. I have a laptop and a tablet and a phone and an epic stationery collection. That's my office. But it's spread everywhere, there is no order to it, so for the next year, I'll dedicate a section to writing. That's my goal. Even if it's a box or a case or the corner of the dining table. 

And so it Begins


Those areas are my initial starting point. That's the mess that needs order, and I have to find that order around my family, general housework, cooking dinner, the day job and writing. So... I'm going to be busy. 

The trick will be to stay motivated throughout sleepless nights (because I have a baby) and get my s*#t  together when I'd rather sit and watch Teen Wolf for the 6th time. It's my ultimate hobby. 

Getting my belongings in order is where it all starts. It's my January. 

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Saturday, 3 August 2024

Time to Write


These aren’t the easiest times we're living in right now. Financially, it seems like there are nothing but obstacles. Stability is a goal.

It takes a lot of hours at work just to get by, which can make being a romance writer an extra challenge. I’d love to spend all my free time editing, but I guess the trick is finding free time when I have a burning desire to eat and have a roof over my head.

Priorities

I read somewhere that ‘if it's important to you, you’ll find the time.’ Well, whoever said that wants to take a closer look at the high cost of rent and groceries and car insurance, and they’ll understand why my priorities are the ones that pay.

Except, they’re also kinda right. Being a writer doesn’t pay me much, that’s why I have the day job, but I still manage to find scraps of time to scrawl words on paper.

Even this blog. It's 11pm, my baby is sleeping in his cot beside me, the house is quiet and I’m writing this with my phone. It’s important to me, so I’m finding the time. This week, anyway.  

Day in the Life

A lot of my writing actually gets done this way. In bed with my phone, or a notebook in the kitchen while I prepare food, even in the shower. Whenever I can. It may take me a long time, but I get there in the end, even if it cost me a bit of sleep. Too much sleep. I love sleeping.

Being Vigilant

I do try my hand at time management but it’s never been my strongest skill, and I’m such a fan of procrastination. Organising my bookshelves just seemed so important when it came time to write a synopsis.

I do all the things that are supposed to help. Things like to-do lists and drinking coffee and forcing myself to open the document and not wait for inspiration.

It all comes back to prioritising what’s important, but this is also real life, so there are often times that I open the document and have to abandon it to make dinner, take my dog out, or settle a tired baby.

Someone once asked how I have time to write and the truth is I don’t. But I do it anyway.

I’m a Romance Writer

Maybe I have a little more expendable time than others because I keep my romance fictional. It’s all on the page, and it means my time is mine. These really are hard times though, and it would be nice not to have to work all the time just to stay afloat.

Hey, at least we’re in this together, right? In the words of Brandon Lee in The Crow, ‘ It can’t rain all the time.’

In the meantime, I’ll be working on my next book in bed on my phone.

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Sunday, 23 June 2024

Bethany's Camera

 

Bethany believed in magic. She was a witch after all. It was kind of a gimmee that she believed in what she knew to be true.

She’d celebrated Summer Solstice the night before with all her sisters and she’d stolen some of the sunflowers they’d used to decorate the house, to fancy up her studio a bit. They were perfect props for the adorable photoshoot she’d just done with a West Highland Terrier and a three-year-old little blonde girl.

So, yes, an immortal witch in a coven who had just celebrated Summer Solstice obviously believed in magic, but that wasn’t the type of magic she was thinking about.

What Bethany meant was art. Okay, she admitted that sounded cheesy. But it was also true. Art was entirely magical to her.

At first, she’d been drawn to painting but over the last decade or so, she’d switched to photography. She was always hidden behind a camera. Her sisters groaned when they saw her coming, but she didn’t care. Life was intriguing through a lens. It was more beautiful if she could frame it.

Right then, for example, as she walked through the town centre, the flea market was set up, with every stall selling second hand goods, and each topped with a colourful tarpaulin that would have made a bright, uniform image.

She stopped in front of a stall with a red striped canopy, and rain from the British summer trapped in the material. The market stall was selling old camera equipment, and Bethany noticed a particular camera. Vintage and obsolete now, with the range of SLRs and camera phones available, but she smiled when she saw it, because it was the make and model of the first camera she’d ever held.

It had a silver body with black leather and looking through the viewfinder had brought her intense joy. She’d snapped photographs of everything when she’d owned this camera, wasting reels and reels of film on ordinary flowers and overhanging branches, straight roads, wooded forests. None of it had been boring to her.

Now, it was almost ironic that with the unlimited number of digital images she could take, she was much more particular and took a lot less.

The price tag on the camera was £8. It wasn’t worth anything except nostalgia. She searched for the seller of the stall and made eye contact with a man in his late twenties who immediately approached her.

“I’d like this please,” she said.

“Sure thing.” His gaze lingered on her face as she handed him the money. Did she have food on her chin or something? “This is going to sound really forward,” he continued, “But can I have your number.”

The abruptness of the request shocked Bethany. “Um…” What was happening? She wasn’t like her sister Martha. She wasn’t searching for her mate. She wasn’t hoping she would find love now that the goddess had forgiven them and it was possible. She was still enamoured with the world, as terrible and as heartbreaking as it could be, and that was enough for her.

“I don’t think so,” she replied, shaking her head.

“Okay, fair enough. How about instead, you let me buy you a drink. There’s a place there.” He jerked his head at a small coffee shop with silver tables outside.

He was handsome, this man. He had a dimple in his right cheek and the beginning of lines around his eyes when he smiled.

“I have a family thing to get to.” Not entirely untrue. With the number of sisters in her coven, there was always something she could tag onto.

“One coffee. Ten minutes,” he suggested.

She played her old/new camera between her hands. This man wasn’t her mate, and Bethany didn’t go on dates, but maybe it was thinking back to the girl she’d been when she’d first discovered art and photography, maybe it was thinking about how excited she was with what her future held. Something made her say, “Yes.”

The camera sat on the table between them as Bethany spent time with someone other than her sisters for the first time in as long as she could remember. This wasn’t going anywhere. It was just a coffee. But it was something. 

The End

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Sunday, 12 November 2023

Sneak Peak: Meet Martha


Martha is the female main character of my work in progress. The second book in the Shadow Coven series which is a paranormal romance series about a cursed coven who has just been given forgiveness. The book focuses on the 28-year-old witch who we first met in River's Heart and who is about to have her own story told. 

Who is Martha?

Martha is a vital part of the coven. She's strong but shy and she's as loyal as they come. Nothing is more important to her than her sister witches. She's been seeking her mate, but as the book starts she's tired of looking, and she makes the decision to give up dating. 

She's in a transitional stage of her life, having just lost her job at the library she's worked at for years, but everything is about to change for Martha.

Martha's Story

Martha's book has romance, sex, magic and adventure, not to mention a deeper look into her coven and the witches who are her family. This book-smart, stubborn but naive female is going to find herself in trouble. 

The book is a work in progress. I'm currently making my way through the first draft of this paranormal romance book. If you're looking for something to keep you amused between books though, you can visit my website for free short stories and book extras. 

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Friday, 19 May 2023

Between (Writing) Jobs

 One book finished... Another to start.


Protecting Their Heart is officially released, and I've been on a bit of vaycay before getting back to writing. Even a romance writer needs a break. 

Now, though, the break is over. Time to work. Time to write that book. 

It's been quite a rest period, and I admit that there have been feelings of guilt. So how long is too long when you stop writing? I felt justified when I decided to spend some time on other hobbies, reading books, and binge-watching boxsets, after all, I don't take time off at Christmas. I just keep writing.

Now I'm getting back to it, I feel like I've taken too much time. If I hadn't had that break, think how far through my first draft I would be...

Is It Okay to Rest?

Heck, yeah. When you work a day job, as I do alongside writing, you get annual leave. You get vacation days. Because burnout is a real thing. 

You might still think about your project and that's okay, but it's also okay if you don't.

Take a break because it's been proven that those who take time off are more productive, and happier. 

Warning Signs 

How do you know it's time to take a rest? Look out for these feelings:

Writer's Block

Sure, maybe you can push through writer's block. Maybe you just need to take a walk, read something else, switch to longhand. But maybe it goes deeper. If you're stuck, deeply stuck, then don't be afraid to take some time for yourself. 

Exhaustion

This could be the border of burnout. If you can't face sitting down at the screen and getting words down, if you're looking for a way to avoid it, then it won't benefit you to force yourself. All you're doing is increasing that fatigue. 

If dread accompanies your writing then you're doing something wrong. It doesn't have to be fun every second, and it doesn't have to be easy, but you should want to do it. It should be important in the moment. You should still love being a writer. 

You Just Don't Want To

I love writing. The stories I'm plotting and planning always play in my brain, so if I don't want to do it at all, then that means there's more wrong than a lack of motivation. This isn't the same thing as being stuck on a scene, or a part of your book not being as fun to write as another. This is when there's no will at all. 

Something More Important 

Writing can't always be your first priority. It's not possible. We're adults, and we have other responsibilities. Whether that be a day job, a family, or something else... If you have something in your life that needs to be resolved first or put before your book... Writing will still be there. It will wait for you. 

How to Take a Break

I have a lot of hobbies and many things that I like to do, but most of all, my favourite thing is books books books. After all, it's why I'm a writer. So, if I have time to spare, I'm going to spend a chunk of it reading. 

I'm also going to watch TV. It's the perfect opportunity to catch up on shows you've always wanted to watch but never had the time. Binge-watch, baby. It's what streaming services are for!

There are a thousand things you can do. Go outside, get exercise, eat out, eat lots, see your friends, meditate, go dancing, drink cocktails, paint, draw, skate, ski. There are so many things in the world to do. There's no way that you won't find something you love. 

Romance Writer Clocking In

All vacations must come to an end, and mine has reached that point. That's not a bad thing. As I've already said, I love writing, and the story ideas and scenes don't stop coming because I'm doing something else. 

I've got so many stories I want to tell, and I can't wait to share them. To meet new characters, and find out what happens to them. To develop old characters and learn new things about them. 

Protecting Their Heart is on sale, but I have plenty to be getting on with. After all, the books to be written by a romance writer never ends. There's always writing to be done.  

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Saturday, 15 October 2022

Where Have I Been?

 


I haven't blogged since July.

I've cut down social media time. 

I'm just trying to write. To finish what I'm working on. To complete projects. And I've taken a little time for myself too. 

I'm not hiding away, but I think I'm trying to be in the real world and less in a web-based world, and sometimes I think that too much social media can negatively impact me. It's about whether the benefits outweigh the negatives; lately, they haven't. 

The real world has been busy too, which hasn't allowed me a lot of free time to spend online either, so writing has been my priority. 

Protecting Their Heart, my new shifter romance is in its final edit so will be coming soon. 



Tuesday, 19 July 2022

Conversations With Characters: Protecting Their Heart

Sometimes when I'm telling their stories the characters from my romance novels get a bit chatty. They're not necessarily helpful, but as a romance writer, it's nice to talk to them. 

Protecting Their Heart is my current Work In Progress. A menage shifter romance that is at the moment, in edits. 

Chatty Characters


I have a scene in the current Accalia book and my characters keep creating obstacles, never quite reaching the scene planned. I don't know if I'm forcing it or if the book is necessary to move things forward. 

      Adam: It'll happen if it needs to happen. 

That's not really helpful.

      Adam Continued: (Shrugs) Was aiming more for honest. 

      Ethan: I say do it. (Pause) Wait, am I in it?

That's not the point. 

      Ethan Continued: If the scene involves me or Penny, then I say keep it. 

      Adam clears his throat pointedly. At Ethan's blank look, he lifts an eyebrow. Ethan rolls his eyes. 

      Ethan Continued: Fine. Me, Penny or Adam then keep it. 

Obviously one of you is in it. It's your bloody book. 

       Ethan Continued: Then keep it. You know what I say about a book about us. The longer the better. 


Romance Novels and The Characters


More information and details will be coming soon from the Accalia wolf pack and the books about them. Book cover, teasers, and blurb are still to come. 

If you're interested in reading paranormal romance stories by me, visit my Smashwords page and see what's available. 



Saturday, 16 April 2022

Expectations vs Reality of a Romance Author

 

Hands up if you thought being a romance author would be more romantic.



Visions of reclining on a chaise longue, sipping champagne and eating chocolates while the words flow out of me and onto the page may not have been quite accurate.




Misconception Number One: I’m a writer. I’m gonna be rich!

It’s hard to type when I’m laughing so hard at the hilarity of that thought. Rich…? Good one.

Hours at the laptop, hours on social media sharing posts and making connections, hours writing blogs and researching book marketing, and still no guarantee that the books will sell. You can do all the right things, and still be lucky to earn sixty pence a month.

There’s always the dream to be the lucky one. To be the one who will be discovered, the one who defies the odds of being a self-published author and makes millions, but the reality is – that more than likely – you will probably work a day job and write in the spare moments you scramble together between the responsibilities of your normal life.


Misconception Number Two: I’m a writer. I must be smart.

No.

What I am is a person who daydreams a lot. Sure, some of the things I write require research, but what that means is I google a lot of stuff and then promptly forget it as soon as the book or story is finished.

Any visions I had of swanning around with my hair in a chignon, smart-lady glasses and a pencil behind the ear, while I spout facts and answer any question asked has been replaced with a scruffy ponytail, finger-smudged lenses, and a confused expression on my face.

Misconception Number Three: I’m a writer. Nothing else matters.

Hmm… I like to eat food and have a roof over my head, so the day job is a little higher on my priority list. As is my family, my dog, my friends. I love writing, but I personally need time with all the people I love, and so I do give writing as much time as I can, but not at the cost of relationships.

I’m an introvert by nature. I’m mostly happy in my own company, and I’m lucky that pairs well with being a writer, but other things are important to my mental and physical health, and they definitely matter.

 Misconception Number Four: I’m a writer. I write every day.

As much time as I do spend writing, it’s not necessarily every single day. There are days where I work long shifts, or I go out, or I have other tasks of equal importance that need to be done. There are times where I just don’t want to, and though I can push through it, I don’t always do it, because if I make writing an ordeal, I won’t want to do it, and right now it’s an important part of my life.

I write often, but that doesn’t mean daily. I’m finding the balance important.

Misconception Number Five: I’m a writer. I don’t need to read.

Every book I read helps me develop as a writer. Whether I like the way it’s written, and the story told, or I don’t, there’s usually something to be taken from it. I feel like it seeps into my brain and lives there.

I’ve always been a reader. From my first book, I was hooked. Sometimes they’re rereads, sometimes they’re new, but I always have a shelf full of books, and I think I’m a better writer for every word I read.

 

Misconception Number Six: I’m a writer with rejections. I suck at this.

Or maybe not.

Every failed attempt at writing success doesn’t mean it wasn’t well written or a good story. What it means is that it’s hard to stand out in a mass of other works by equally ambitious writers.

I’ve been rejected a lot, because I’ve tried a lot. I remember a famous actor saying that for every success he gets six rejections. Sure, for me the ratio is tilted heavier toward the rejection side – one book I’ve written was rejected nearly thirty times before there was even a hint of someone showing interest – but rejection is a part of being a writer, and as I’m told often in rejections, writing is subjective. Just because one says no, doesn’t mean the next will. Keep trying. Your next attempt might be the yes you need.

 


 

 

 

 



Sunday, 25 July 2021

This Book Won't End

 

I feel like I've been working on my current WIP forever. 

My shifter romance, the first book of the Acalia series, and the characters don't want to wrap things up. I reached 60,000 words and didn't feel very far along, and now even even further into it and the word count keeps growing. 

How do you make your characters sort things out when they just want to keep gong on? If anyone learns, could you tell me, because if not, Protecting Their Heart may never end. 

I think what could help would be if I could go somewhere with no internet and no people, and just a typewriter. Unfortunately, in real life, I have a day job, I have responsibilities and I have to work around those things. 

Trying to find time to write is hard enough, but when its for a book that won't reach it's end, sometimes it feels futile. 

This book has to end though, even if it's so I can find out what will happen to my characters myself. I need my characters to reach their resolution. 

Thursday, 3 June 2021

Rebellious Characters

 

I’m not a pantser, and by that, I mean that I love a good book outline. I like planning who my characters are and where my story is going to go. I like the structure of following a plan.

But with characters like these, I may as well not bloody bother. They don’t behave. They just go off doing what they want. It doesn’t matter to them if it makes the book longer and longer. So, I ask you, why do we bother with outlines when characters have their own ideas?

On one hand, I suppose it’s a good thing. It means they’re very real to us, but on the other hand; what about all my story ideas that I wanted to write?

Either way, I love my mischievous, mind-of-their-own, rebellious characters.

Thursday, 11 March 2021

Writing. Not Marketing.

 


Last year I did a lot of work on my website, my blog and my social media. I regret that now.

I spent many many hours writing blogs, planning posts and generally trying to interact with other people. The impact that had on book sales was zero.

I’m a writer, and somewhere along the way, that shifted, and I felt like I was working more in marketing. The repercussions of that were that I wrote less, I published less. I missed out on doing what I love doing, and that is just writing stories. It was my own fault. I thought it was important to being a writer.

Don’t get me wrong. I like social media for engaging with others, but last year, I think I looked at it wrong. I concentrated on it too much, to the detriment of my writing, and that meant that word counts and completed works took a hit.

I’m doing it differently this year. This year I’ve decided to concentrate on writing more. Not because I think marketing isn’t important, but at the end of the day, you can’t market what you haven’t written, and I write because I love it. Because I want to share my stories with others, even if that story is only shared with a few people.

I appreciate each and every person who takes a chance on me by buying my books, and downloading my stories, and so this year, I want to get more of them out there.

I still want to engage, I still want to talk to others, but I want to do it so that I can share with you. I want social media to be fun.

This is my year of writing. Not my year of marketing. I am a writer after all.

 

Saturday, 31 October 2020

Samhain with the Coven

 


No, not the alarm.

River groaned into her pillow, but there was no ignoring the annoying tune blaring from her cell phone, demanding that she awaken. She cut the sound of, thankful when silence fell upon the still-dark room.  

It would be so easy to curl into Alex’s warm body, close her eyes and go back to sleep. It was barely the break of dawn and her mate was so comfy to lie on top of, but she’d promised Helen that she would help with the set up for their Samhain celebrations. It was a Saturday after all, and River didn’t work weekends.

She was happy to do it – any of her sisters would be – but goddess, did they have to start so early.

It was still freakin dark outside.

Another groan and she shuffled toward the edge of her bed, but before she could before she climbed out of it, Alex’s steel band of an arm wrapped around her and dragged her back against him.

“Nope,” he murmured, burying his face in her hair. “Stay here.” A kiss to her neck and he added, “It’s Saturday.”

Flutters went wild in her belly as they did every time she was in his arms. His effect on her hadn’t lessened at all. “It’s Samhain,” she told him.

He slipped his hand inside the bottom of the strappy tank that she slept in and pressed his palm flat against her belly. The need for him was as fierce as it had been when they’d first met. Unrelenting, it beat through her and she would have been happy to spend every second of her life joined to him.

“It’s too early,” he mumbled.

She definitely agreed, but a promise was a promise. “I told Helen I’d be at the house first thing.”

“Ten minutes,” he rumbled. “Give me ten minutes.”

“I dunno,” she teased. “What can you even do in ten minutes.”

He chuckled roughly, his voice still bearing the grit of sleep. “Let me show you.”

She couldn’t resist him at the best of times, and it was even harder when he was all sexy and sleepy, his handsome face smattered with morning scruff, his eyelids heavy and his hair mussed, so when he rolled on top of her, she gave him more than his requested ten minutes.

She couldn’t regret it either, when she climbed out of their bed, happy but late. He watched her retrieve the outfit she’d hung up the night before, watched her pull clothes out of the dresser, and as she passed the bed to leave the room on her way for a shower, he reached out and took her hand.

She was already late. One last kiss with her mate wasn’t going to make any difference, so when he drew her down, she didn’t fight him.

She had to pick up her black jeans, purple sweater and underwear from the floor, and the hanger holding her dress from where it laid over the bed, but nothing was crumpled.

When Alex grabbed her pillow from her side of the bed, she expected him to put it beneath his head. Instead, he closed his eyes, curled his body around it, burying his face in the softness and breathed in, falling back to sleep.

Because it was hers?

He was cuddling it because it smelled like her. How cute was that?

Smothering a sigh, she stared down at him. She should have just asked him for what she wanted. The worst he could do was say no, but she was too cowardly to say it.

Too late now. He was asleep again.

At least she thought he was, but just as she was about to turn away, his eyes opened.

“Why you staring at me, baby?” he asked, deeply.

She smiled, the endearment getting to her every time. “Because you’re cute when you’re sleeping.”

He snorted, and then with a curve to his lips, he added, “I’m cute when I’m awake too.”

“True.”

Biting on her bottom lip, she shuffled from one foot to the other.

Say it, she ordered herself. Just say it.

“What is it?” he asked.

Shaking her head, she replied, “Nothing.” She forced a smile. “I better go.” She blew him a last kiss and then went for her shower, clothes in hand and furious at herself.

Damn it. What was wrong with her?

Why couldn’t she just tell him. She wanted to spend Samhain with him, and he wouldn’t deny her if she asked, but for a reason even she didn’t understand, she hadn’t been able to utter the words to invite him.

This was a big deal for her and her sisters. It was the sabbat that said goodbye to the warmth and light of summer, and welcomed in the long, dark nights of winter.

Samhain was their new year and she wanted to spend it with him, but he hadn’t asked to come with her, and she hadn’t invited him. She didn’t want to spend an important celebration without him.

River was so pissed off at her cowardice that she was in a dark mood when she arrived at their coven house.

She wiped her booted feet on the welcome mat and then called out, “Helen?” as she shut the front door behind her.

“I’m in the living room.”

River peeked her head around the door, and saw that Helen was already at work setting up for their celebrations.

Standing in the middle of the room, Helen wore a skirt in a dark orange shade of sandstone with a black top and ankle boots, an outfit that fit well to her curves while making her golden brown skin shimmer beneath the bright colors.

“Hi, sweetie,” Helen said, pulling an orange cloth from a wooden trunk. “You’re late.”

“I know, sorry.” River wasn’t really sorry – her morning had started off in the best way – but she was polite. “I just have to hang up my dress,” she held up the outfit hidden inside a cover. “And then I’ll be down to help.”

She ran up to her bedroom, hung up her dress in the closet and then returned to the living room where Helen had covered their wiccan altar with the orange cloth, lit the candles and was already adding the mementos of her loved ones who had passed.

A hand drawn picture of Helen’s father and some other items that were personal to her were set on top, and River pulled out the photograph of her own parents from her bag, adding it to the display, before dropping her shoulder bag on the floor by the sofa.

“Okay,” she said to her sister. “Where do you want to start?”

Helen straightened, tucking an errant strand of shiny black hair that had dared to slip loose from her otherwise neat bun.  River wouldn’t be able to reach Helen’s level of immaculate if she lived to be a thousand. Her own blonde hair was braided messily, with many wayward strands.

“So, I’ve lit the firepit outside,” Helen said, “Set up the altar for our dead loved ones, and buried the apples along the driveway for the spirits with no descendants to provide for them, but that’s all I’ve managed to do so far.”

All she’d managed to do? It wasn’t even seven am yet!

“What time did you get up?” River asked. She didn’t know why she was surprised. This was Helen after all, but still, even for her…

“About five,” Helen replied.

“Just as well we have no neighbors nearby,” River said, amused. “They’d be calling the cops on you, if they saw you out there digging in the dark.”

“There’s so much to do,” Helen said, “And we don’t want to spend the whole day setting up.”

“Is it just you and me? Where’s everyone else?”

Helen blinked. “You want the list of every coven members’ daily activities?” That wasn’t sarcasm. She would actually tell River if she wanted to know.

“No, I’m good,” River replied, before she had to spend the next five minutes hearing the itinerary of all her sisters. “I just meant, is there no one else here to help?”

“Oh,” Helen said, “Not until later.” She started setting chairs out around the hearth for the spirits of their ancestors who wished to join the celebrations. “I actually thought Alex would be with you. Is he coming later?”

River kept her expression blank as she set a candle in the window. “I didn’t invite him.”

Helen stopped in the middle of her task and turned to face River. “Why on earth not?”

A good question to which she had no answer. She’d asked herself a thousand times why she hadn’t asked him, and so far, she’d drawn a thousand blanks. River shrugged. “He probably wouldn’t want to come.”

Helen frowned. “But he might.”

Before either of them could say anything more, the front door slammed, drawing their attention, followed swiftly by their sister, Martha stomping into the living room with a face like thunder and her blue eyes flashing anger.

She dropped her satchel to the floor and announced, “I just got fired.”

Shock stilled the room. Martha loved her job at the library. This would be devastating for her.

“What happened?” River asked.

Martha’s voice was sharp when she replied, “They’re replacing some members of the paid staff with volunteers, and I’m one of them.”

“But you’ve been there for years.”

“Not anymore,” she snapped. “Today sucks.”

“All right,” Helen intervened, stepping forward. “Let’s calm down. Today is Samhain. It is not a day that sucks.”  She shook her head, and muttered, “I swear the coven never used to be this dramatic.”

River’s eyebrows lifted. Was she serious?

Martha was the one to say, “You mean in the days when the witches sacrificed their mates for power and got cursed by the gods?” River had to hide a smile at her sister’s attitude. Sassy Martha was funny. “That’s the time you’re talking about?”

Amusement had Helen’s lips curling, even as she ignored the sarcastic question. “How about we go outside and take a walk,” she suggested instead. “Be among nature for a while.”

“It’s cold outside,” Martha told them, sulkily.

Exasperated, Helen responded with, “Wear a coat!”

Martha was actually still wearing hers as she’d been too angry when she’d stormed into the house to think of taking it off. She waited by the door while River and Helen donned theirs.

“Would you like to hear what I believe?” Helen asked Martha, as they made their way down to the creek.

“Sure,” Martha replied. “Why not.”

“I believe that it isn’t coincidence that your job has come to an end on the same day as Samhain,” Helen told her. “It’s a time for a new beginnings so what better time to start out on a new adventure than now?”

“But I like my job,” Martha said.

“I know,” Helen replied, then in a soft voice, she continued, “But you have been there a long time, and you have grown into a routine that rarely alters. Maybe it’s time it did.”

“She means you’re stuck in a rut,” River explained, with slightly less tact, but who had time for subtlety when you had a stubborn sister.

“Thank you,” Martha said with a glower. “Did I ask for a translator?”

Whoof. Getting fired made her snappy, but when River pointed that out to her, it earned her an even fiercer glare.

It was as if Martha was pretending River hadn’t spoken when she said to Helen, “It’s not a rut when you like it.”

Helen reached over to squeeze Martha’s hand comfortingly. “I understand that you enjoyed your work, but maybe you should take this drastic change as a chance to alter the pathway of your life.”

“Meaning? Get a different kind of job?”

“Yes, but also…” Helen climbed over a fallen tree log, blocking their path. River and Martha followed right behind her. “When River found Alex, you said you planned to go out more, and then you didn’t act upon those plans. Maybe a different career will draw you out more.”

Martha’s jaw tightened, and it was in a  tight voice, Martha said, “I like being at home.”

“Really?” Helen asked. “All the time?”

“It’s not all the time!”

“Um…” River interjected here. “It kind of is.” Tentatively, she added, “Remember Valentine’s Day.”

“What about it?” Martha asked, a sharp edge to her tone.

“You said you were going out with April so that Alex and I could have a romantic dinner at home, and then you crashed it.”

“I didn’t feel like going out.”

“Did you feel like watching me and Alex all over each other all night because that can’t have been fun for anyone but us.”

Martha pulled a face. “Okay, fair point. That was one of the grosser nights of my life. I admit, I regretted being home to see that.”

River laughed. “It was a good night for me, even with you around.”

“I know,” Martha grumbled. “I heard how happy you were.”

“Your own fault.” River had no sympathy for her. She should have known what would happen. “You should have made yourself scarce like you said you would.”

Helen shook her head, sympathetically. “Oh, Martha, if that wasn’t enough to make you change your social life then this has to be.”

Heaving a heavy sigh, Martha said, “Fine, okay. I’ll take what you’re saying under advisement, but let’s not belabor the point all day. I have savings. I have time to think about what I want to do. I don’t need to rush into anything.”

With a roll of her eyes, Helen said, “As if money is a concern for any of us. The coven is wealthy. If you never want to work again, you have that option.”

“And what would I do?” Martha wrinkled her nose. “Stay at home all day? No thank you.”

Helen shrugged. “Like I said. It’s an option, but at the very least, it gives you time to think about how you would truly like to spend your days. What would make you happy.”

Martha sighed again. “I don’t know what that is.” Before Helen could say anything else, she quickly added, “But I’ll think about it.”

 

They were on their way home when the subject of Alex rose again. Martha asked what time he would be arriving.

River didn’t want to answer. She didn’t want to get into a whole discussion about it. What happened between her and Alex was for them only but try telling that to nosey sisters. They never let her get away with anything. “I don’t think he’s coming.”

Frowning, Martha asked, “Why not?”

Helen replied before she could. “Because she didn’t ask him to.”

Her lips parted in surprise. “But we’ve been talking about it for days. Why wouldn’t you invite him?”

She didn’t know why. “I just didn’t, okay?”

“River!”

“What?” Jeez, why did sisters have to be so interfering?

Martha’s face was furrowed in confusion. “Why didn’t you invite him?”

“I know why,” Helen said, and she looked way to smug about it.

“You do not, River replied.

“I do.”

“Are you going to be trying to fix all of us today?” River said, exasperated. You’re not queen of the world, you know.”

Helen laughed loudly, the walk in the chilled air making her bright and exuberant. “Thank you for telling me,” she replied. “I wasn’t certain.” Another small laughed, and she asked, “Would you like to know why you didn’t invite him?”

“If you want to tell me, there’s not much I can do about it.”

“That means yes,” Martha explained.

“Are you translating now?” River grumbled. How the tables had turned. Martha just grinned at her.

They were walking up the driveway to their house, and Helen said, “You didn’t invite him because of what happened when he learned you were a witch.”

River’s heart sank to her stomach. Alex loved her, but learning she was immortal, and a witch had been a lot for him, and he hadn’t handled it very well. He hadn’t wanted to see her at first, but he’d missed her, and had come back, declaring his feelings for her, and from then on, they’d been happy together. But if she was honest, she would admit that her time without him had left scars on her soul. It was her biggest fear, and it grew deeper and more feral with every day that passed, because she loved more, every single one of those days.

“That was a mistake,” River replied. “He regrets it.” And he did. She knew he hated how he’d reacted.

Helen was all sympathy when she said, “That doesn’t deny the fact that it did happen. He hurt you, you were in pain, we all bore witness to it, and you may not realize but I think there’s a part of you that is so terrified of that happening again, even though intellectually you know it won’t, that you’re too scared to ask him to be a part of what sent him running from you the first time.”

River didn’t know what to say to that. Was that why she hadn’t been able to ask him? Was that fear still in her?

“You should call him,” Martha said. “Ask him to come. You know he will.”

“But he might not want to.”

Martha rolled her eyes. “He’d walk through fire if you asked him to. He’ll definitely come tonight.”

“I know he will,” she said. “But he might not want to.” What if he saw what they did and who they were, and he didn’t like it? He was her mate, and if she ever saw him look at her in disapproval or fear; well she couldn’t survive it again.

“I just want to point out,” Martha said, “Not once since he moved in, have I seen him shy away from anything wiccan, and we don’t exactly shelter him from it.” They walked through the front door, and as they walked back into the living room, Martha said, “Just call him.”

“Next time,” River said. “I’ll ask him next time, but it’s too short notice now.”

“Will you?” Martha asked, shaking her head, “Because these sabbats are important and you are a witch! Are you just never going to share that with him for an eternity?”

“I think there’s a part of you that’s hoping he’ll magically show up tonight,” Helen said, “And that’s not fair on him. If you want him here, you have to tell him, otherwise you’re setting him up to fail.”

“I wouldn’t be mad at him, though,” she replied. She wouldn’t blame him for not coming. She would be sad about it though.

“You’re going to do what you’re going to do,” Martha said, “But remember, we care about him too. He’s a part of this family, and we want to spend Samhain with him too. You brought him into our family. You shouldn’t then cut him out of the important parts of it.”

 

River was not being very helpful today. It was lucky Martha had come home when she did, and as she was climbing the stairs to her bedroom, Eva had arrived.

Now, she was sitting in the middle of her double bed, her cell phone in hand, ready to call Alex.

Her heart was thudding heavily as she pressed the call button. It rang twice before he answered.

“Hey, baby. Missing me?”

Just his voice brought a smile to her face, even as the nerves fluttered wildly in her belly. “It’s only been two hours,” she pointed out, but he wasn’t wrong. She did miss him.

“Long enough,” he murmured.

An image of him as she’d left him flashed into her mind. “Are you even out of bed yet?” It was just after nine am.

“Would you be jealous if I said no?” His voice was tinged with humor. “Admit it, you’re imagining me naked right now.”

“Oh, baby,” she said, teasing him back. “You know I always am.”

Alex chuckled. “Damn it, I wish you were here right now.”

“That’s actually why I’m calling.”

He must have heard the nerves in the tremor of her voice, because his own turned serious. “What’s wrong, sweetheart?” She didn’t answer right away, and the silence stretched between them. “River, whatever is it? Tell me.”

The words came out in a rush. “Will you come over and celebrate Samhain with us?”

A pause and then he replied, “Er…yes.” There was a little more silence then Alex asked, “Anything else?”

“No.”

“Seriously? That’s all you wanted to say?”

“Yes. Why?”

“River!” Why was everyone saying her name in that tone of voice? “What the hell was the buildup for? You scared the shit out of me. I thought you were about to dump me over the phone or something.”

She snorted. As if that would ever happen.

“What time do you want me there, baby?”

“Any time you like, but April will be the last to arrive at five so sometime before that would be good.”

“Okay,” Alex said, simply. “I’ll be around this afternoon.”

“Okay.”

“Anything else you want to say?” he asked. What was he waiting to hear? There was an expectancy on his end, but she didn’t know what for.

“Nope.”

“Okay.” He sounded confused.

“Okay.”

“See you soon, baby.”

River ended the call with a grimace. Well, it had been awkward, but she guessed it could have gone worse. He hadn’t said no. He was coming. That was a win. But he hadn’t seen the rituals yet.

She traipsed downstairs on heavy feet.

“Is he coming?” Martha asked.

“He’s coming.”

“That’s great,” she said, with a smile. “Told you there was nothing to worry about.” She wasn’t worried. She was wary. There was a difference. “Come help me,” Martha added. “I’m painting the name stones and they’re not very neat.” She held up a stone with a black smear. “Can you tell this says Beth.”

River took the seat across from her. “No,” she replied. “But I’m no better at this than you are.”

“Take it slowly,” Martha laughed. “We can make this job last all day.”

“I’m going to need alcohol,” River groaned.

Victoria was passing at just the right time. “Did someone say alcohol?” She planted a bottle of wine in between them. “I’m your savior, I know.”

“Do we just swig it from the bottle?” River asked, unscrewing the top.

“If you want glasses, River, you only have to ask.”

“Glasses, please.”

Two wine glasses joined the bottle, and after blowing them a kiss, Victoria sauntered away, her leather encased hips swaying.

“She’s right. She’s my hero.” River filled their glasses with the pink wine, which was Martha’s favorite.

They worked together, drinking and laughing, but River was waiting for Alex to arrive. She wouldn’t feel calm about his reaction to everything until he was there.

 

Alex was standing outside the door, waiting for River or one of her sisters to answer, when a cat came and weaved its way around his ankles.

He crouched down and scratched the small, black animal’s chin.

He knew they had a cat, but he’d seen it, and that little creature was grey. So, who was this?

The door swung open, just as he scooped up the cat, and River’s sister, Jennifer stood across from him.

“You came.” She stepped back. “Come in. River’s in your room.” He liked the way she said your room, as if it belonged to both him and River. “Who have you brought with you?” She gestured to the cat in his arms.

“Oh, he was on your doorstep. Figured he was yours.”

“No,” Jennifer replied, taking the small, black feline from him. “He just came to bless the house.”

Alex might have responded, but she walked away with the cat at the same time River appeared at the top of the stairs and emptied his mind of everything but her.

River was always the most beautiful thing in the world, but as she stood up there, a small smile on her face, peering down at him, his heart physically stopped at the mesmerizing vision she was.

Her hair fell in beautiful blonde waves down her back and over her shoulders, and she was wearing a dress with a flaring purple skirt on the bottom and a fitted black top with sleeves that covered part of her arms but with a neckline that bared the curve of her shoulders.

She descended the stairs, moving toward him in strappy shoes as he waited, stunned out of all thought and all action. He was helpless to do anything but watch her approach. He’d never been religious, and until he’d stood in the physical presence of a goddess, he hadn’t given much thought to their existence, but as River came to him, he was thanking every deity in existence for making her his.

He would never feel anything other than gratitude that this female was his mate. That this woman was meant for him.

If he hadn’t had faith in miracles before, she turned him into the most devout believer. River was his miracle. There was no other explanation for such perfection in his world.

She stopped in front of him, and even with her wearing heels, he was taller than her.

“You look beautiful.” It was the understatement of a lifetime, but he didn’t have the words to do her justice.

“Thank you,” she replied, and then added, “You look perfect.”

That was relief. It was his first wiccan celebration. He hadn’t a clue how he was supposed to dress. When she’d first asked him, he’d hoped they didn’t expect him to don wizard robes or something like that, but then he remembered who his mate was and knew that wouldn’t be the type of Halloween they would celebrate. He’d kept it simple with black jeans and a black shirt.

“Can we talk,” he asked. He didn’t like the way her face paled at his somber question, and he lifted his hand to cup her face, stroking her cheek with his thumb until it flushed with color.

That was better.

“Of course,” she replied. “We can go up to our room.”

Our room. He loved hearing it.

He took her hand, holding onto her as they climbed the stairs. He wanted to speak to her, but while they were up there…he was definitely getting his mouth on her in some way.

 

Oh, gods. Oh, gods. Oh, gods.

He was going to run again. He was going to flee.

No! She chastised herself. Where was her faith in her mate? They belonged to each other. He wasn’t going anywhere.

Even so, her heart was a drumbeat in her ears when the door to their bedroom shut, sealing them in there alone. Her hand slipped from his.

“So, angel,” he said, leaning against the door, his eyes dark and serious. “What was with the last-minute invite?”

Her eyes were wide with fake innocence. “What do you mean?”

“You’ve had this night planned for— Well, I guess you’ve always known what you’d be doing. Why did you wait until today to invite me?”

Shuffling on her feet, she folded her arms over her chest. “Does it matter?”

“It does to me.”

She drew in a shuddery breath, and then meeting his gaze, she confessed, “I was scared to ask you.”

He nodded somberly. “Why?”

“I don’t know,” she replied in a whisper.

“You do.” But she didn’t want to say. She didn’t have to, because he cursed violently, and then said, “Hell, I do too.”

She was helpless in the face of such honesty and all she could do was stare up into his eyes.

“I’m not going anywhere,” he told her bluntly. The clarity in his statement made it impossible to believe otherwise, but she had to ask…

“What if you get scared by what you see here?”

He was shaking his head before she’d even finished talking. “That’s not going to happen.”

“You don’t know that.” She wanted to believe that he understood what they were, but she just wasn’t sure.

“I do,” he argued. Pushing away from the door, he crossed the floor to stand before her, and cupping her face in his hands, he said, “Vampires could come knocking on our day, you could summon demons, hell, you could bring forth lucifer himself, and I would be at your side through all of it. I lived without you once, and I barely survived it. I won’t again.”

“What if—”

“No,” he interrupted with a stern shake of his head. “No what if. You’re mine. I’m yours. Nothing is changing that. You and me, we’re forever. It’s that simple and it’s that true.”

He cut off any other objections she could have come up with by planting his mouth on hers, and just like that she was lost to the pleasure of his lips. She had to trust that he knew his own feelings. And she had to have faith.

She was his. He was hers. There was nothing else that needed to be said on the subject.

He pulled back from her, leaving her addled brain rushing to catch up with her body.

“Now, I need to ask you something.”

She blinked. Ask her something. What? He needed something. Right, brain. Come on. He needed to ask her something.

“What do you need to ask?” Calm down, body!

“I’ve been to this house a lot for family events, but not many of them were for things like this. Witch things.” True. He’d come for family dinners, but no rituals. “Is that only because you were worried about my reaction, or did I cause so much damage when I walked away that you don’t want me here? Or your sisters don’t want me here?”

River was horrified. That he could think that was even a possibility. No. No. A thousand times no. She wanted him to be a part of every aspect of her life.

“Of course that’s not why,” she rushed to tell him. “I’ve wanted you here from day one, but you’ve adjusted to so much to be with me, that it didn’t seem fair to ask you for more, and as for my sisters; they’ve nagged me at every sabbat, every celebration, every ritual that you weren’t here. They consider you a part of this family and it’s pissed them off that I didn’t invite you before.”

He absorbed her words then nodded slowly. “Good,” he replied, and a smug smile spread across his face. “My girls have got my back. Never any doubt.”

River laughed. “You never had any reason to.”

“Neither did you.” Serious again. “If there’s one thing you can believe in, it’s that I love you and I always will.

“I love you too.”

“And always will?”

Smiling, she repeated, “Always will.” She stood up on her tip toes and pressed a kiss to his jaw. “I guess we better head back down?”

Wrapping his arms around her, he hauled her up against him, and she enjoyed the feel of his hard body against her soft curves. “We will soon,” he said, “But first, I have some plans.”

She squealed as he scooped her up off the floor and dropped her on the bed. There was no grace to it, but he was laughing as she gripped the mattress in an attempt to not bounce off the mattress, and then he was coming down on top of her.

Well, she supposed there was no rush to get downstairs. Halloween lasted all night.

 

Alex was sated, he was content, and he was fighting the urge to spank his girl on her perfect ass as she sashayed in front of him.

The only reason he didn’t give into it was because every time they turned a corner, one of her sisters were there. It helped a man hold onto his control.

“You want a drink?” she asked, as they got downstairs.

“Sure.”

She led him into the kitchen where Martha was sitting at the table, the black cat who had arrived with him, perched on her lap while she scratched his ears. April was sitting across from her. That was both of his roommates here, or as he was beginning to think of them, his two annoying little sisters.

The house was decked out with candles, flowers, lights and pumpkins. Not just pumpkins. There were creepy-assed carved turnips. He picked one up.

“What the hell is this?” he asked. “You couldn’t find enough pumpkins?”

April laughed. “No. They’re meant to be turnips. They’re supposed to look like protective spirits to keep us safe on this night of chaos.”

“Right. Of course.” He set it back down. They would scare away any ghouls at the door.

“There’s beer in the fridge,” River told him, as she leaned against the kitchen counter.

“Thanks.” He gave a soft pat to her butt, because he couldn’t resist any longer, and she shook her head at him, but she had a pretty smile on her face as he left her to open the fridge.

It was full to bursting, beer taking up the top shelf, and they had loads of his favorite.

“Hey, who drinks this?” he asked, shutting the door and opening the can.

“You do,” River said.

Obviously. “Yeah, but who here?” They must have it in the fridge for a reason.

“We get it in for you,” Martha told him. “Helen added it to the online order. Check the cupboards. There’s loads of stuff for you.”

They did that for him? They actually got food in that he liked. That easily, he felt accepted. River’s sisters were unlike any people he’d ever known. River loved him and that was all it took for them to take him in as family.

Before he could lose his shit and sap out about it, Beth leaned into the kitchen, and announced, “We’re about to start the ritual.” She tossed a box of matches at Alex and he caught it with his free hand. “Will you light the candle in the living room window?”

“Sure,” he replied, following Beth. “What’s it for?”

“It helps guide the spirits home.”

“You ever seen a ghost?” he asked.

Beth threw him a smile. “Just wait.”

Man, that sounded ominous.

River met him in the hallway, as Beth left them alone. “You might want to put a coat on,” she said. “It’s cold outside tonight.”

“So, we’re not going to be dancing naked in the garden? This wiccan ritual sounds like it’s going to be a disappointment.”

She snorted. “You wish! I’m not getting my nips out in this cold weather.”

He barked out a laugh. “Good idea. Keep that naked body for my eyes only.”

She blew a kiss up at him. “Always.”

The sisters of The Shadow Coven were gathered in the garden, standing in a circle. A firepit burned in the center.

“What do I do?” Alex asked his mate.

She brushed his hair back and replied, “You’re not wiccan. You can just take a seat and watch. Or if you’d rather go inside—”

“I’ll stay out here with you,” he told her. “I’ve got my beer. I’m happy.”

She went to join her sisters, and he pressed a kiss to her hand before she could go. “I love you.” Three simple words and they couldn’t convey all he felt.

Her smile was bright. “I love you too.”

Taking a breath, she joined the circle, while Alex took a seat on one of the padded garden chairs. He locked his eyes on River and waited for them to start.

It wasn’t nearly as weird as he’d expected it to be. Well, at first it wasn’t. There was a black cord, and they moved around in a circle, each with a broom, sweeping around. There were candles and incense, smoke drifting around them. The coven spoke in unison, not a chant, but words that sounded almost like a poem, and he hadn’t known what to expect but he found the ritual beautiful to watch.

He couldn’t take his eyes off River. She was striking; the way she moved, the air around her. His stunning witch. She looked at peace and at the same time invigorated as she moved with her sisters. She was all he could see, and even with the other girls around her, she stood out. A wildling. A pagan. A miracle.

Alex knew magic existed, had seen it for himself. Hell, his immortal mate had ensured he would live as long as she did, which potentially could be forever, but it still shocked him when he witnessed something mystical, so at first, when he saw the shapes behind River, he thought it was a trick of light. He should have known better.

It was when the shape became clearer, barely more than a shadow, but so obviously the outline of two humans at River’s back that he realized what he was looking at was real. His mate’s eyes were closed, a small smile curling her luscious lips, and he was on his feet before he had conscious thought, drawn toward her. She was a siren that called to him, and he gave in contentedly.

Touching her hip, he alerted her to his presence, and she leaned instinctively into him, her back against his front. There was a bracing chill around her, and it was more than just the sharpness that came with October weather. It was a strangely comforting bite that enveloped them.

The shadows weren’t just around River. The whole circle of the coven was surrounded by a second circle of these cold shapes.

“Our loved ones,” River whispered to him. “Our people who are no longer with us.”

“Who are yours?” he asked, speaking so close to her ear that her hair brushed his lips.

“My parents. Mom and Dad.”

As he held onto his mate, her body pressed against his, and an aura of acceptance weaved around him, washed through him. The pure sense that this was where he was supposed to be beat through him.

Sweeping her golden sunshine hair back, he hid his face in her neck, and just clung to his mate as the feeling of home seeped into him. River was his home.

 

The ritual was completed by them throwing stones into the fire pit, where they would collect them tomorrow. River passed Alex his name stone with the explanation that they would collect them in the morning, and divine their future for the coming year from the state of the stone. He threw it to the flames along with the coven.

After the ritual there was a sense of calm, as everyone was lost in their own thoughts. Each of them thinking of the spirits who had visited them.

It was always like this at the end of the Samhain ritual. A stillness fell over them, but it never lasted long.

“What happens now?” Alex asked as the sisters started to wander back into the house.

“Now, we eat,” River told him. “We have to ground ourselves after a ritual and we do it with food.”

The long table in the dining room was set for fifteen, and River noticed Alex looking at it curiously.

“The empty place is for spirits to join us, the same as the chairs around the hearth.”

“You know, an hour ago that might have sounded strange to me, but now…I see them.”

“Are you okay with that?” Even for a witch, seeing spirits could be disconcerting, and Alex was not a witch.

“Yeah,” Alex replied. “I told you. I’m more than okay with anything as long as I have you.”

It was hard to believe that she deserved the gift of his easy acceptance, and she lifted his hand, kissing his fingers, thankful for him.

The meal started out quietly, everyone still under the influence of the ritual, but as they went on, the food disappeared, and they got louder, more jovial. Alex was as relaxed as River had ever seen him. Leaning back in his chair, his arm over the back of hers as he played the ends of her long hair between the fingers of one hand, while eating off his plate with the other, he laughed at something April said.

This was how it was supposed to be. Their mates an integral part of their coven, and it reinforced for River what they had suffered at the hands of their ancestors’ desire for power. They’d sacrificed their mates all those years ago, and because of it, The Shadow Coven had suffered. Not so much River, because she was still young, but Helen and Victoria; had they lost out on centuries of being with their mates, if they ever found them.

She prayed to all their gods and goddesses that her sisters would find their other halves. She wanted them all to have what she did.

“We’re going to leave the clean up until tomorrow, right?” April asked.

River laughed. “You’re only saying that because you’re at work tomorrow.”

“Well, true, but also because I’m calling it a night, and going to bed.” She rose from her chair, saying her goodnights as she went, and not long after April headed upstairs, others started to follow.

 

Alex went straight to their bedroom, while River stopped by the bathroom to wash her makeup off and brush her teeth.

She kept a stash of toiletries and clothes at the house because she spent so much time there. Back in the bedroom, Alex was already naked and in bed. Pjs weren’t much of an issue for him. He never wore them anyway.

“Will you undo my zipper?” She crouched by the bed so he could reach.

“You ask me for the best favors, baby.” He pressed a kiss to the top of her spine as it was revealed by the parting zipper, and when she undressed, she could feel his gaze on her in an almost tactile caress.

She was naked and about to pull on her shorts and tank to sleep in, but in a rush of movement, Alex grabbed her and dragged her onto the bed.

“Hey,” she exclaimed, as he laughingly came down on top of her. “I wasn’t finished getting changed.”

“I like you as you are.”

“Naked?” Hardly a surprise.

He grinned and swept his gaze over her body appreciatively. “It’s my favorite of all your outfits.”

“I’ll bet!” She rolled her eyes.

“I’m a simple guy. I like simple pleasures.”

“You like naked ladies.”

Squeezing her hips, he travelled his hands up her body. “I like naked you.”

“Keep flirting with me like that, and you’ll get lucky.”

“That’s what I’m hoping.” He stroked her hair from her face, his touch making her belly flip wildly, and his smiling expression grew serious. “I’m really glad that you asked me to come today. I like being a part of this.”

“I’m glad too. Thank you for being here with me tonight.”

“You don’t ever have to thank me, baby. You’re my happy place. With you is where I always want to be.”

“You’re my happy too.”

“Speaking of happy…” He kissed her until her head was swimming. “Since this is the Wiccan new year, I say we start it off right.”

And then his mouth was back on hers, his hands wandering.

He really was her happy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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